sexta-feira, dezembro 09, 2011 - 
Ch-ch-Changes,Reclamações
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Ch-ch-Changes,Reclamações
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Thoughs from... Brasília
How are you guys? So... new blog, new stuff... but i will keep the old posts...
Today i will talk about the pretty place where i am right now: Brasília.
Maybe you don´t know what the hell i am doing here... in the Capital of Brazil. And if you are Turkish you probably will get even more confused: The main city of Brazil is called Brasília... and for you guys that the same thing... one in english and the other in turkish... =*
Well... why Am I here? This weekend I´ll do a important and quite hard test... and if i got a great score i will come here to study for the next 4 to 5 years...
The fun part of being here is that i am couch surfing in my aunt´s house... really i am sleeping in the couch... but she does not has a CS profile... hehe... It´s very fun talk with her... diferent subjects that we normally do, more deep, a bit less niece-aunt, way less mentor-mentee (she is the actuary), and more like old acquitances becaming friends... maybe i will even add her on my facebook (LOL)... of course i couln´t make her stop taking care of me as if i am like her daugther...
Brasília is fucking huge... the squares here is just amazinly long and open... and green... and i am not used to... i put some pictures in my facebook... I even found the Ministery of Magic!! But i couldn´t figure out how to go in... =/
But Brasilia is not in my mind... All the things that happened with me in this last year are filling fooling my mind. How hard will be this test tomorow and sunday? What I´m gonna do next year with my life? It worthed? Did I screw up my life? Kinda all this thoughts just keep my mind busy and don´t let me enjoy what is happening right now... Ok there is not so much fun stuff going on... but... but...
Once i hear from a wise witch: that we travel by plane, but our souls still travel by feet...
Brasília is 844.91 Km of São Paulo, that´s more then from Zurich to Berlin...
And of course, my soul and my mind is in another place, with my friends, family and with a post card that this wise witch sent me and a package that arrived yesterday in my mom´s home, from Zurich... this package really touch me even before being send... and against that the postal card ask me if i "can still hold Europe in a good memory"... of course i can...
I miss Zurich so much, i miss some friends i got from there... but even if I stayed there, most of them would be away... and that bothers me so much... so many changes and so out of my control...
It´s the end... the package arriving and me not using that ticket is really the END... the end of a era... but even if the package wouldn´t be ever sent, i got that plane, or even just stayed there not taking the 12th august plane it already be ended...
End are also a new begginings... that´s good... but also is very sad... I´m tired of new begginings... i don´t want it anymore... is not possible some smooth changes?
And that bring me to the questions: do i want to come to Brasília? Will i be able to handle that? Moving and moving again?